Can you die of....

loneliness? If you can my life may end soon. I realized a long time ago ... though I am not a real, real social person, I like to be with my loved ones a lot. These long days it is just me. I am too tired and fat to do a lot of housework or exercise and my mind gets tired of reading..when i watch a movie i pause it 6 or seven times..sometimes until it shuts off because i can't sit for 2 straight hours. Help!

There are so many serious things going on in my family. Norma is sick, Wesley is having radiation treatments, Zita has health issues. My husband's ankle is very swollen and he is working on it through the pain. I feel very petty to complain about my peace of mind but as anyone who has dealt with it knows depression can be very disabling.

I am blessed with lovely sisters, a much loving husband. The Lord chose to save my sinful soul and give me the gift of His Holy Spirit.  I guess I have no reason at all to complain. I feel better already!

To Perry

A Real Father

It’s not so common anymore
to have a dad who’s really there,
who is the provider for his family,
who comes home every night,
whose predictability
creates a sense of stability and security
in his household.
Your routine may not seem valuable to you,
but it’s been worth a lot to me.
I’m thankful that I can depend on you
to always be you--
a real father,
responsible, trustworthy,
and a great role model.
We’ve learned a lot of good things
from watching you….

Sometimes the real dad is not the first father.

Perry, I know you don't feel very appreciated these days, but please know..I appreciate you. I DO realize all you've done.

Happy Father's Day

I love you Dad. You were always there for your family. I respect your life. It was a privilege to be your daughter. To me, you were always a big man. In every sense of the word.

It's too hot....

I am not a sun worshipper, at all. I love cool weather, gentle breezes, and overcast days. Could it be because I don't tan, instead I broil? Maybe so. This is the beginning of summer and I am already wishing for fall. An unselfish reason to dislike this heat is my husband works in an un-air-conditioned shop. He comes in wringing wet and dragging. He gets lots of prayers sent up from me to God..."please protect my husband from heatstroke today!”. In the morning I call out "stay hydrated!" This morning my last words were.."and,  if you run out of water brought from home, you buy some! Even if it is three bucks a bottle." My husband is thrifty.. actually, that sounded a bit nicer than how I sometimes feel about his thrifty-ness. As I am writing this I think..I have to make it to heaven..I am sure it has the best a/c. It doesn't say so in the Bible but,  it does say Hell is where you burn in a lake of fire. No thanks!

Today is our anniversary...

Today is the anniversary of Perry and my first date. It was June 4, 1979. That seems so long ago. Perry has been very good to me. He has been a constant that has never changed. He has been the main father figure for my children and grandfather to our grandchildren. He has a gentle soul. He is the first man I ever knew that could so easily be moved to tears. I admit it used to be off putting but I've learned to see the realness of these tears. They are not a weakness but a great strength. He loves God and truely has the faith of a trusting child. While many people believe I oversee everything in this house, the real truth is that Perry is and has always been the royal priest of this home. He has a much calmer, quieter nature than me..which is a very good thing. I have never heard Perry pop off in anger. He carefully thinks out every situation.  I feel he greatly respects me. I appreciate this. My Aunt Bettie Ann told my Mom that the Lord had given me a man that was going to love me always and that love would show me how much HE loved me. When I first started dating Perry Mom was upset because he was an unbeliever...In prayer the Lord told her Perry was not an unbeliever, he just didn't know he was a believer yet. She said she felt peace after that. Mom once told me she didn't worry as much about my household because she knew Perry would always make sure we were taken care of. I think that is high praise from Mom. I love my husband very much.